WHAT WERE YOU EXPECTING?

After two heartbreaking miscarriages, numerous invasive tests and one successful uterine surgery: I am pregnant. And, not only am I pregnant…I am half way through my pregnancy!
I must admit that the first half of this pregnancy was tough. I was completely frightened. Frightened to loose this baby and surprisingly enough…frightened to bond with it. I’m really hoping that from this point forward I can shout from the rooftops, “I am having this baby!”
My pregnancy will not be the carefree pregnancy that I had always imagined for myself; I once envisioned a pregnant lady briskly walking in a park or on a beach without a care in the world. I have had to embrace the fact that this slightly more terrifying situation is my own and that I must lay that old vision to rest. I cannot morn for something that had only existed in my mind. Now, I look graciously forward and do the best I can to remain calm. My daily goal is to create a safe and peaceful place for this baby to grow.
I have been given the gift of pregnancy and I promise that no matter how tough it gets, I will not take this pregnancy for granted.